Hello my little avocado,
How are you my little one? Wish you could be with us right now. Picture me at the couch watching TV, your dog sister Myla curled up next to me, and your Dad working at the computer.
It’s a pretty happy scene, non? We skipped out on a Tycho concert at the Corona because it was raining. And because it’s Monday. And because we’re lame. But not every day feels joyous. Because of the hormonal changes in my body brought on by my pregnancy, I tend to be all over the place with my emotions. Did I tell you I once cried in Old Navy’s maternity section simply because I was holding a large-sized shirt? Or how about the other day when I told your dad I was feeling down? He asked me why and I said, with tears in my eyes: “I don’t know.” It seems so silly when I think about it now.
Mood swings happen to everybody, at different levels. The thing with me is that whenever I’m feeling low, I don’t feel like working on anything at all. Gone from my mind are any thoughts of blogging, sewing, stitching, sketching or knitting. I just want to sit on my whale ass and do nothing. But that’s obviously not good for business. Your Dad does try to get me motivated, but I hate being told what to do. I know, I know, I am an ungrateful meanie sometimes (sorry my love!) I really hope you don’t inherit my crankiness and stubborness, my little avocado.
With the weather finally getting warmer, I do feel like I’m getting a little bit better. I’ve been walking to and from work every day also. And today, in honour of a beautiful warm day (before it started to rain), I am fully more motivated than ever and more committed to this blog and our family business. Changes will be made. I will get up earlier. I will stay fit and healthy. I promise, baby. And slowly, we will build something amazing. Basically, what I’m telling you is that I hope you learn that you cannot get discouraged by mood swings or by bad times. There will always be happy days and there will always be sad days. The bravest thing the everyday person can do sometimes is to keep on trucking through the sad days.
Oh baby, I can’t wait to meet you. Heard your little heartbeat again today. It is still the most beautiful sound I’ve ever heard. Please grow strong, my little avocado.